I'm starting to have real doubts about my impending move to America. What was once a fantasy, an exciting opportunity to experience a new way of living, is now quickly becoming a reality. And with that the reality of leaving David is hitting me like a tonne of bricks.
I think it hit me the moment that I was told my green card was approved. A rush of emotions came over me and I kind of pushed part of it to the back of my mind. The thought of being away from David for 12 months is killing me inside. I don't want to go on about it too much, but I think since I moved to Adelaide 5 or 6 years ago we haven't really been apart for more than about two weeks (and that was training for work).
It is going to be so weird not having him around, and not being around him.
Part of me is really scared about how I am going to cope with it. And another part is scared about how he will deal with it. I know we both have family and friends around us, but we have been each others rocks for longer than I can remember. And no-one else can take that place! I know with the modern technology we will have FaceBook, and Skype, and FaceTime, and messages. Not to mention phone calls as well. But I don't know if that will be enough.
Anyway, enough of my rambling. I need to go and cuddle up to David and spend some quality time with him. I have a feeling these next two weeks are going to fly by. And there will be a lot more tears and heightened emotions I'm sure......
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