Well, the day is here. Not sure if I want to say it's finally here because from the moment I opened my eyes this morning I've had such a heavy feeling inside. David and I have already had tears this morning but we are trying to just move forward with the day and get ready for the airport tonight.
I've got one bag packed (full of clothes) and a second bag that is almost packed (it's half filled with treats and other bits that I think I'll need for a year, plus some extra clothes.
I decided to pack a few extra clothes to take with me just in case I need them. I picked some things I don't wear much so that when I come back in a year's time I will know whether to keep them or just donate them to a charity in the US.
This packing process has been good for one thing - I have culled three garbage bags worth of clothes out of my closet in the past week. It's always a good feeling to get rid of stuff that you never wear/use.
But back to today - I find myself every couple of minutes looking for David, wanting to be near him, close to him. Even if it's just staring (which I'm doing as I type this now). I am realising that as much as I am going to miss David, he is probably going to miss having me around just as much (if not more).
I am feeling so emotional for so many reasons, but the smallest reason is the move to Maine. I'm not that worried about living in a new country. I feel like my main focus (as it should be) is on David, and the excited I'm feeling around leaving him for a year. I really hope it gets easier once I'm over there and settled. I keep telling myself that we will be able to stay in touch every day, use Skype and iMsg and all of the modern day tools. I always knew today would be the hardest day. I just didn't realise how hard it would be.
David, I LOVE you. Thank-you for allowing me to have this opportunity to go and follow my dream. Love you forever! You are my soul-mate xxx
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