Mixed feelings ...

With only four days left before I finish up with STA I'm starting to feel a little anxious. Not long until I become unemployed. I'm moving to the USA without a guaranteed job although I do have a couple of contacts that I can contact once I arrive. The last time that happened was when I moved to Adelaide about six years ago. 

If I'm being really honest, I'm not as worried about the job part to start with. I've been saving for this move for over a year so can afford to live on some savings for the short-term. But I'm very mindful that if I spend too much of my savings then I won't be able to travel or visit any friends.

I'm starting to have moments where I am picturing myself at the airport in a few weeks, standing at the entrance to the international departure gate with David. Then the tears start to flow and I can't stop them. I can only imagine what a mess we will both be on that night. I am NOT looking forward to it at all :(

Maybe I should look into taking something just before my flight that will calm and relax me so I don't get so worked up. Not that anything can stop me feeling sad though!!

Until then I am trying to make the most of our time together. Stealing hugs whenever I can *sigh*

xx

My HAPPY Place!

Getting anxious .... 2 weeks to go!

I'm starting to have real doubts about my impending move to America. What was once a fantasy, an exciting opportunity to experience a new way of living, is now quickly becoming a reality. And with that the reality of leaving David is hitting me like a tonne of bricks.

I think it hit me the moment that I was told my green card was approved. A rush of emotions came over me and I kind of pushed part of it to the back of my mind. The thought of being away from David for 12 months is killing me inside. I don't want to go on about it too much, but I think since I moved to Adelaide 5 or 6 years ago we haven't really been apart for more than about two weeks (and that was training for work).

It is going to be so weird not having him around, and not being around him.

Part of me is really scared about how I am going to cope with it. And another part is scared about how he will deal with it. I know we both have family and friends around us, but we have been each others rocks for longer than I can remember. And no-one else can take that place! I know with the modern technology we will have FaceBook, and Skype, and FaceTime, and messages. Not to mention phone calls as well. But I don't know if that will be enough.

Anyway, enough of my rambling. I need to go and cuddle up to David and spend some quality time with him. I have a feeling these next two weeks are going to fly by. And there will be a lot more tears and heightened emotions I'm sure......

Hello New England!

Portland Headlight, Cape Elizabeth

This is the first post of my new blog. Not really sure what I should say as there are a million thoughts going through my head right now.

Thoughts of David, leaving home, leaving family and friends, saying goodbye to our dogs, being so far away, losing a big part of my support system, stepping out of my comfort zone, not having a job, not fitting in, being on my own ...  Not to mention having three weeks to go and trying to get everything sorted out before I leave Adelaide ... I know I will have family and friends around me, but it somehow feels like it will just be different.

I wanted to start a blog as a way to document my experiences living in Maine. I want somewhere that I can post thoughts, photographs, experiences, stories, and just random stuff about my day to day life here and keep it all in one place. I'm sure I will post on FaceBook (those who know me well just laughed), but I want someplace that I can just write down how I'm feeling without needing anyone to comment about it or validate me and my feelings.

So here it is, a blog about moving to Maine and all it has to offer!